Pessimistic?
RantI usually like to think of myself as optimistic, even though I very sarcastic and blunt at times, I still believe trying to work for the best possible outcome in life, even if its temporary. But lately I feel that I'm constantly doubting myself and situations/events in my life. Even if positive things happen, I find a reason to be upset or frustrated.
I've had time to write and draw lately, but I get discourage cause I hate everything I think to write/draw or the fact that I can't scan anything into my computer at the moment.
My permit finally showed up in the mail but I stupidly reminded myself that I lack a car to practice with and no one is willing to teach me.
I've had some independence at home for once since my grandfather is currently in the hospital(nothing major, its his own fault as usual) but everyone at home is arguing and anytime I bring up something I think is urgent or important, I'm told that it isn't because my grandfather is in the hospital and as a member of the family it should be my number one concern, even though its he could have been out by now and is only in their because of his stupidity.
I finally started to finalize stuff for college in the fall, but filling out paper work and forms has made me so nervous about college and reminded me how my family and I basically have no income what-so-ever. I currently have no idea how I'm going to pay for things... like anything at all.
Worst of all, I've been spending time with my family but now they just pick me apart. According to them, I don't spend enough time at home, I'm too needy, I'm too thin for their liking, being vegetarian is a problem, and my lack of control of things lately(even though I've been productive in numerous ways this month alone) is depressing everyone.
I know most of it must be paranoia or angst or just stress, but I honestly feel negative and annoyed all the damn time. I really can't stand it.
Sorry, I really just needed to rant, its driving me nuts.
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